Clueless

What's up with me recently?
Simply clueless...
Was it the pms thingy that affected me? (must have been...having a great appetite lately...zzz...gonna gain weight soon...sigh)

been bloody emotional these days...
it's like almost anything could lift me up...
and after that almost anything can let me down...
and very sudden too...
what is wrong???

I'm so clueless until I dunno how to describe this...
but I could have found out why...
there's been a lot of stuff that make me worried are kept within me...
I never disclose to other ppl, not even to my dearest and closest ppl...
probably it's been a year I've been like this??
yea.. something happened a year ago that changed a little bit of my attitude towards life...

I don't disclose things because I do not like ppl beside me seeing me feeling unhappy...
or rather, my things could have caused them feeling unhappy or worried...
rather I'm the listener... to listen to their troubles and problems...
that's why i've always put up a cheerful smile...
to cheer ppl up...

everytime I see them, I feel happy...
It seems like all my trouble has gone when I'm with them...
at that moment in time...
I felt comfortable with them...
I felt happy with them...
I yearn to be with them all the time...
But then, life's not that simple...
I have to come back to reality soon...

Counting down the days that I'm gonna be with them and also the days that I'm back to reality...
Sigh~~~

when movies turn real

was bloody disturbed by the movie "kidnapper"...
thanks to my nephew who introduced this movie...zzz
i was too agitated watching this entire movie in the cinema...coz of how the kidnapper treated the poor kid...
though the acting, directing are so-so... but it's just the actions that are disturbing to me...
coz it could have happen to any kid in real life... and it can be real....
that's too much for me...
okay, i may have recently watched movies in a too serious matter...
i also dunno why... i kinda engaged myself into the movie...
i would feel sad, agitated, happy, frustrated, etc for the characters in the movie....
if movies were real, i sure hope it's a happy ending...

the night the city sleeps

Earth Hour... 27 March 2010..8.30pm-9.30pm

the night the city supposed to sleep...

wouldn't it be amazing to see the busy city life sleeps? in darkness...not totally... but at least with dimmed environment?

wouldn't it be nice when u can gaze to the sky, watching the sky in total darkness? and especially in a busy city life?

maybe i was expecting too much that night...the more that u expect, the more disappointed that u get...sigh...

i couldn't even do the simple magic trick, calling out "alakazam!" and poof! off went with the lights... haha...

probably there wasn't any awareness about this Earth Hour thingy... or people couldn't even be bothered? how to save the earth with such attitude??

however, as a consolation to my disappointment, i was able to see my stars in the sky while walking back home...

awesome! at least better than nothing for the night, right? haha

Blood Type & Personality

There's this general idea that your personality is determined by the blood type...

So here's a quiz that I watched it from a Korean comedy show, "My Boyfriend is Type B".

If you caught your spouse cheating on you and was in action with the other person in a room, what would you do?
a. Rush in to the room and caught them red-handed
b. Holding the door knob and thinking properly what you should do
c. Peek through the window and see what they are doing
d. Call the authorities and catch them (just think that it's illegal to have infidelity la... i think Koreans still follow the old tradition)

So, which one u picked?

Answers straight up...

Choose answer a. are O blood type: the impulsive type
Choose answer b. are A blood type: the cautious type
Choose answer c. are AB blood type: the shy type? (forgot what the girl said in the movie)
Choose answer d. are B blood type: the selfish type

haha... is this quiz accurate for you? well, mine is quite accurate... =p

Here's also some of the comic strips about the different blood type posted by another blogger DonnaDaritan... it's cute... some are accurate for me, some aren't... hehe... enjoy!

How to build love?

這是為一個朋友而寫的...
朋友, 我是為你而感到高興呀...真的很高興, 所以在這里, 寫了一些感觸... 可能是因為不需要再聽你發牢騷...yay! hehe... 跟你開玩笑的啦... 其實, 之前, 是有一點擔心你的, 因為我不是甚麼感情專家, 不知道應該要怎樣勸告, 我的經驗很膚淺嘛...
你終於想開了,相通了...
不再胡思亂想...
領悟到, 其實身邊的人不是那麼容易碰巧在一起, 必須經過很多的考驗而能在一起...
而且要有緣分才能真正的在一起...
所以呀, 要好好的珍惜身邊的人哦!

我的華語好爛啊!
anyway, just click on this nice article on how to build love
it talks about the stages of long lasting love, which i find might be quite true... not too sure >.<
told ya, i'm not a 感請專家....haha...

The History of me and SE

Me started knowing SE in 2003..
and ever since then, we were never apart...
hehe...
what were u thinking?
SE is Sony Ericsson... haha


My first SE:T100

My dad bought this cute little blue display submarine guy when I first entered university...
He's been with me from 2003-2006...
Talk about first love...
I've started to fell in love with SE.










My second SE:K750i

It was my last day of industrial attachment with the company and I was so determined to use my last paycheck to buy this camera phone :)
So memorable...
and it's still in use now... not by me though...
talk about the durability... :D







My third SE:W910i

Due to some reason, I needed to change my hp number. So might as well change to a new hp right?
I've wanted to try out a new walkman series... And also I've always wanted to try out the sliding phone as well...
Ta-Dah!
I've chosen this one...
Still ok-ok... though sometimes I've been abusing it when my hands are itchy and keep sliding it on and off... my bad...hehe





And this June, I'm so gonna change to smartphone...
Yea... everybody's been owning an iPhone these days...and heard that it's coming out a new one this June...but then, it's too much when u see almost everyone has it... nah... I want something different...something out of the ordinary...
My heart is still with SE...
SE going to launch out this one pretty soon:

Introducing XPERIA X10!!!
uber cool!!!
4 inch screen, SE 1st android phone, 8MP camera...
so wanna have this one... hope it's not that sluggish...
hmm black nicer or white one nicer?
And I don't think it's cheap :(
Gotta save save save!!! but how to save?? when this coming month got...hmm...let me see...1..2..3..4..5..6..7..OMG!! 7 ppl birthday??
ahhh... habis lah....no more buying stuff for myself for the upcoming months...
我忍！我忍！我忍！

The Heart Asks Pleasure First

I've been practicing this piece for the past weeks... and today I've finally got into the in depth of playing this -- the emotion part...

Totally surprised myself, I nearly cried when playing... My heart was following and singing together with what I'm playing... Woah... serious! I've never felt my heart with this sad kind of feeling before...

Here's how I interpret the music piece... There are the lyrics played at the right hand, which sings what the heart wants to express... while the accompaniments played at both hands are at the background of this whole piece, which I interpret it as the things that are happening in life...

In life, there are many duties and responsibilities to be fulfilled, rules to be followed...But do we listen to what our heart wants to say? It's confusing when you need to deal with the rational side of you and the feelings from the heart... that's when I cried, when I finally understand, sometimes life doesn't allow us to hear what our heart wants, even though you can hear it shouting and expressing to you... Do we ever asks what our heart wants amidst the happenings in life? But then, the heart never gives up to express its feelings even though we choose to ignore it...sad, isn't it?

The Heart Asks Pleasure First... what a suitable title for this piece...This was written by Michael Nyman in 1993. I have to salute to him for writing this fantastic piece of work... It was the OST for the movie "The Piano". Enjoy this master piece that I've embedded... And I'm gonna master this piece of work too! Good luck to me!

IT fair in Singapore

Yes, my first time IT fair in Singapore...
it was so so so many people during the fair...
exhibitors are almost up to 6 levels...
good lord, so many people in almost every level of it...
horrible experience for me... coz i was mostly sandwiched by the people surrounding me...it's like have to find holes to squeeze through... and my god, if you are at the wrong lane, u are gonna stuck there like forever...
luckily the place got air-con and still got some air to breathe... if not i would have fainted straightaway on that spot...
bought a portable HDD over there... but then what's up with the online warranty registration huh? keep saying i entered the wrong serial number...sienz! i'm gonna call up dunno-who to ask about it...
next time, never ever try to go there on a weekend, unless u've got a really important stuff to buy over there...

March 13

March the 13th, a Saturday...
6 years ago,
'twas same date, same day...
how peculiar...
a cycle...returning back...
thinking back...
the olden days...
how time flies...
things changed...
for the better...
i hope...i wish...
next March the 13th, a Saturday...
a better future...
and many cycles to go...

Just for fun

For sagittarians:

"Life is confusing when you don't love the person who loves you and the person you love doesn't love you. You'll probably need to look at a situation like this today, because you might be deluding yourself. You might even be surprised to discover that you really love the person who loves you."

hmm...

Birthday Surprise!

just a couple of days ago, i received an sms from my friend's wife...
she was asking whether our gang are free for dinner on his birthday and was planning to give him a surprise...and after the dinner, there will be another group of his friends waiting at the house to throw him a surprise... so i said ok and tell the rest of the gang about the plan...

however, the day before my friend's birthday, he forgot to bring his house keys back from his workplace...and he took his wife's keys the following day...so his wife couldn't go back to the house to prepare his birthday surprise, which she took half day leave for that... Awwwwww.... so sweet....

so, that morning i got another sms from his wife, telling me to get the keys... and do not let him know...luckily i came to school earlier than him and took the keys...but the thing is, after lunch, he started to search for his keys... and somebody gave him the info that i last saw the keys...i was like... uh-oh! how?

so, i started to tell him lies...=.=''
saying that i didn't take the keys... i also last saw it at the drawer... bla bla bla... one lie after another...which my friends were saying that my nose is getting longer and longer like pinnochio... haha... he kinda didn't approve about what i did to help his wife....

i know that it's no good for doing that...especially when my friend was kinda panicking on searching for his keys and resulted a bad feeling about it... sometimes it kinda went overboard..it's just like those gags like "just for laughs"...playing pranks and jokes on ppl for tv entertainment...to people who are not sporting enough, it's kinda overboard and feeling that it's too much for playing on those innocent people... but to people who are game enough, it's kinda fun and hilarious... so it's how you see it....there's always both sides in everything...

anyway, the birthday surprise didn't work that well... haha... his wife heard him telling her thru the phone about the lost keys and she laughed...which made him suspicious on it....

it really takes a lot of effort to throw a birthday surprise...and even harder to really really surprise the person...

American Idol 2010 (II)

haha... American Idol again :p
John Park was out... but then he didn't perform well compared to others...
after seeing all the contestants' performance, i think i re-list the ppl that i'm rooting for... :p

1. Siobhan Magnus
2. Katelyn Epperly
3. Lee Dewyze
4. Andrew Garcia
5. Casey James
6. Crystal Bowersox
   

this season really got a lot of talented ppl...

American Idol 2010

The recent American Idol... my eyes and ears are on the guys... 3 in particular.... hehe...
Andrew Garcia, Casey James and John Park....
gonna support them all the way!

Andrew Garcia - he sang Paula Abdul's Straight Up, really really like his version
Casey James - OMG! he got the looks, the voice.... ahhhh he's just such an eye-candy...
John Park - he's just so darn cute when he smiles... :p

I Got You

Totally adore this new song from Leona Lewis... I got you :)
Enjoy!

p/s: she's managed to reduce her body size... from size 14 to 10.... impressive!

Happy Chap Goh Mei!

Today is the last day of Chinese New Year 2010, also known as Chap Goh Mei (15th day? in hokkien) It's also known as Chinese Valentine's Day too! haha...

In the past, single women would throw mandarin oranges to the sea, and whoever picks up would be their future husband to be... Unbelievable right? Maybe I should throw the orange into the lake and whichever tortoise picks up and eats it, will be my husband.....hahaha... so funny... haha...

okie jokes aside please...

recently, there's been a lot a lot of people asking about my relationship status... i have to admit, most of the women at my age are almost all attached with their loved ones.... but is it that unbelievable that i still haven't found my beloved one? ppl asked, "you are being picky, is it?" or "you set ur bf standard too high, is it? maybe you should lower ur standard..."

erm...excuse me? i don't have much standard to begin with... i've always joked with my friends that i liked muscular guys and such....but seriously, physical appearance doesn't mean much to me anymore... it's more of a feeling when i'm being with a certain someone...when i like you, i like you...and when i don't, i don't... there's no reason to it... the feeling that i'm going to enjoy the company of that certain someone, the feeling that i could share my happiness and sorrow with that certain someone... the feeling that i could seek comfort in that certain someone...and that certain someone also feels the same towards me... all these are what i've been looking for... and based on my current status, i still haven't found one...probably is that i never had a chance getting to know other people, or i never give people the chance to get to know me as well... haha

anyway, there's no rush into finding one... if there's no one, so let it be... ;)

Lunar New Year 2010

this lunar new year, i was at home for 10 days.... it was fun to be back at home for such long days....

the usual 3 questions that will popped at you each year are:
1. u have grown fatter
2. when are u graduating?
3. got boyfriend already or not?

and each year, give back the usual answers... haha.. yes, soon, and no.... hahaha

i've started realizing how much i have grown older throughout the years... watching my neighbour's grand-daughter becoming adult, while i was still thinking she's a little girl...made me realize, OMG! i am not as young as i think i am! even my friends are starting a family soon... this year exchange a lot of information, who's getting married, who's still single, who's getting kids... bla bla bla...

and how friends have changed, become more matured, become fatter also... haha....

all in all, it was a great lunar new year! hopefully this year ahead is good for piggies as predicted by the chinese astrologers la... haha..

Horoscopes and such

do u believe in horoscopes? it's quite interesting when u half-believing it and half-skeptical about it.

here's a website where u can check ur birth chart.

i've always thought myself as a true blue sagittarius... but then, i was overpowered by other astrological signs as well.. which is pisces... a very emotional type of horoscope... no wonder i've always acted based on my feelings and emotions... still i'm a bit skeptical about it... haha

a little description of me (i wonder if it's true):

Sagittarius

Restless, cheerful, and friendly, Sagittarius people are generally on the go. They have a love of freedom, and a disdain for routine. Generally quite easygoing, Sagittarians make friends with people from all walks of life. They love to laugh and tease, and get along well with both sexes. Sagittarians have an often blind faith in people, and in the world. Their optimism is infectious, although it can get them into trouble from time to time. These are curious people who love to learn. Their idealistic nature is hard to miss.

Although generally easygoing, Sagittarius is a fire sign. This gives natives a generally quick temper. Fortunately, they're usually as quick to forget what got them angry in the first place. The need for escape is generally strong, and some Sagittarians come across as a little irresponsible. They're generally easy to forgive, however. After all, their direct, honest approach in life is admirable.

Pisces

"Go with the flow" seems to be a Pisces motto. They move about the world in a vaguely directionless, gentle manner. They come across as artists and lovers of peace; but their open minds and hearts can give them a chameleon-like persona. Others are not always sure who they'll meet from one day to the next with a Pisces person. Although often quiet and shy, another day may find them talkative and passionate. They are hugely impressionable, have a dreamy disposition, and project a soft-hearted personality. Pisces sees the world the way they want to see it at any given time, so objectivity is not necessarily a strong point. Neither is decision-making! People with Pisces resist any kind of labeling--their characters are changeable, and they don't want to be pinned down or pegged in any way. Theirs is a restless, searching nature that cannot be happy with any one way of living or being. Pisces avoids cold, hard facts and harsh realities like the plague. They don't have a decisive plan for tomorrow or even today, preferring to keep things open. Since they change their minds frequently enough, and like to "feel" their way through life, too much organization or structure can be seen as very limiting.

Pisces people walk around with their heads in the clouds, and even when you do have their attention, their dreaminess is almost always apparent. These people look for a stable partnership--one that is reliable. Pisces people gravitate to partners who keep them on their toes, and they often will pass off the little details and reality checks to their significant other. They seem to need a practical, realistic partner. Pisces often have a sensitivity to drugs, and sometimes are prone to allergies that come and go. Their physical constitutions seem to be less resistant than most. Pisces people often possess an irresistible charm that comes on in a quiet way, with a soft aura about them. Both their appearance and mannerisms are usually quite intriguing to others.

Fantaghiro

ooh...this was one of my favorite childhood tv movie... i guess it applies the same to all the young girls during the 90's... it's like every girl's fantasy, fairy tale story, just the same as Beauty and the Beast, Cinderella and so on...

Fantaghiro and Romualdo.... ahhh... what a lovely fairy tale... you can watch it from youtube now... too bad i don't see this series aired on tv anymore...

p/s: italians are so pretty and hot :p

I need a hero to sweep me off my feet :p

Love this song from the '80s by Bonnie Tyler - Holding out for a hero
Enjoy!

Special Dedication to p85

today was the day to return u back to ur true owner...
i never say goodbye to you properly...
although we have been together for merely 10 days, it was a wonderful feeling of having you...
at first u were reserved, but after awhile, u opened yourself...
now u are gone, the room seems so empty without you :(
p85, i'm gonna miss u dearly...